Untangle Me

Untangle me, I've seen sadness in black cloths, I've known what it means to be depressed, I've reluctantly lost the aura of staying strong yet through it all suicide was never an option. 

It beats my imaginations how things can u-turn and desperation sets in. I wish I was clairvoyant to see the future from the past but still the future is pregnant with bumps unforeseen. 

I reminisce, and all my flashbacks were hurts, aches, heartbreaks and brokenness that's left me numbed to pain. I wish I could wake up from this scarred life of mine.

I am at a level where I have fought to stay afloat yet aloft spirals my brims. Woe to my chi, The one who gave me life and took away happiness.

Untangle me, I need a new identity, I want to flourish like the cedar in Lebanon, I deserve to be equally blessed,  let my name not perish with my pain.  "No pain no gain" I've been through the pains, I want the gains.

I am not Jabez neither am I Ichabod. I am fierce, I want my freedom, untangle my future I want my name heard else I wrestle you till dawn.